My GOD is a soveriegn holy God!!!

So, for many years God has been showing me his love...and it has been a very sweet and peaceful time:)...But, I guess I always viewed Jesus as just my close friend that I could sit down and just talk to, like I do to my dear friend Dan. Jesus should and is our dear friend...but we shouldn't belittle God as a life size friend, he is SOOO much BIGGER then that! God has so many different sides, and one of the sides I was missing was how my God is sovereign, holy, BIG, POWERFUL, TOTALLY AWSTRICKING...God, has really been teaching me reverence for Him, and a fear for Him...a good and healthy fear...The kind where you just want to hide your face and "take your sandals off so to speak", for you know you are "standing on holy ground"...It is a reverence that has, made my love for my Jesus, even DEEPER!!!...I was reading the book of Job last month, and I came across a verse that just made me fall over, and go WOW!! lol..."1 The LORD said to Job: 2 "Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him? Let him who accuses God answer him!" 3 Then Job answered the LORD: 4 "I am unworthy--how can I reply to you? I put my hand over my mouth. 5 I spoke once, but I have no answer-- twice, but I will say no more." 6 Then the LORD spoke to Job out of the storm: 7 "BRACE YOURSELF LIKE A MAN; I will question you, and you shall answer me. 8 "Would you discredit my justice? Would you condemn me to justify yourself ? 9 Do you have an arm like God's, and can your voice thunder like his? (Job 40:1-14) ...WOW!!!! it just made me think, how tiny and minuscule I really am...The Universe is ENDLESS !!!!...So big that it makes the earth look like a speck, and here I am a speck living on this speck...yet the Father knows the number of hairs on my head!! Praise Jesus!...He is ALL POWERFUL AND ALL LOVING!!!...So I would encourage you, if you are the person that has the love side of God down, make sure you aren't missing the reverence of God...or maybe you just have the reverence and law down, and you are missing the Love side of God!...I challenge you to check your heart, search out who God is!!! Amen!!!

Random

So, I don't really know what my point is for writing today, but I feel like writing something! ha ha...So, today has been a real melancholy day for me, my heart has been very deep in thought about a few things! I am usually in a very happy light positive mood, so this isn't like me:P ha ha... I have a lot of different emotions today, and my heart is in a yearning mood...So, I have just been redirecting all my thoughts towards our Lord Jesus Christ. Last night, I stayed up most of the night just singing to Jesus in our basement (I didn't want to wake the whole house up lol)...and I have been reading a really nice devotion that is encouraging!! I also went on a run of prayer and praise today...I was running, and praying at the same time, which strange enough, is an awesome way to pray!! lol...I also decided that I wanted to start a journal of my life and my thoughts, and feelings...it will be interesting to look back a year or two, or more (when I am married, I am sure my wife would like to read it to, someday lol:) and see how far I have come...The funny thing is, I hate writing (mainly because I have never been to good with my grammar lol), but surprisingly, it has been very enjoyable. It is like always having a friend to talk to at anytime of the day :). I should have started it years ago :)...Oh, today is also my wonderful Daddy's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD :)...So ya, I know it was random tonight, sorry readers lol :)

Trusting

A wise lady once told me;P Distance makes the heart fonder...and time makes the wait all the more worth it, when you reach the end. I would have to agree with that, but to add to that, trusting in the Lord is more important, above ALL else...for he knows the plans that he has made for me (us) and he said 'It is good!!!How encouraging are those words:) So I shall wait on the Lord, and not lean on my own understanding!... "In you, LORD my God, I put my trust. (Psalms 25:1)

An update on my life's status!

So, the past few months have been really beneficial to me spiritually...they have not been the easiest or most fun months...but defiantly good training months, for my 'spiritual run' through life!...A few months ago I felt as though the Lord was asking me to let go of EVERYTHING, that I was comfortable with, happy with, familiar with, and just take a walk of faith, and just trust Him (my beloved Daddy) :)...So, I fought it for a while, not wanting to let go of my desires, and the things closest to my heart...but I finally decided that if I didn't do it God's way, that I would never find peace!! So, I went on what seemed like a crazy path to take, and just followed God...holding his hand, through the dark rooms he had me in. He taught me to just trust, don't ask questions, just GO, just TRUST...It was a very lonely time, as I fought him...but after I finally, just followed God, and stopped asking questions the Lord finally reveled to me, that I haven't completely been standing on my own two feet with Him...but rather, letting the support of other people (whom I love WHOLE heartily!!), or the fears of not wanting to loose acceptance from those high influences, I highly esteemed (and still do), form my faith, or be the reason I do this, or don't do this...So the Lord completely took me away from that...to teach me, that He is who I am to lean on, He is the one I should look to for guidance...and those wonderful people in my life, are to be tools to help me do that...BUT not crutches, to cause me to not lean on God... So, thankfully, I am finally understanding what the Lord was trying to teach me, after I finally just trusted!! If only I would have just trusted from the beginning, and listened to what God was trying to teach me, maybe just maybe...it wouldn't have took so long ha ha...So I encourage you, when you feel the Lord telling you to do something...don't ask questions...just hold his hand, and trust that he is leading you safely through the dark rooms...and if you fight him, you just might end up stubbing your toe on something in the room, if you don't just trust!!...Amen :)...