God can use anybody for his glory!!!

So it has been a while since I have written anything, so I thought it was about time (I only have 20 minutes so sorry if the grammar is bad lol!)...These past few weeks or so, life has been really good to me, I have a good job, good friends, a wonderful family, a wonderful God who loves me, etc...but even though my life has been so good, I have felt like I have been having a spiritual low. I think mainly because I am being selfish in life, and not being totally focused on all the good I have been blessed with, instead I have spent the past few weeks feeling sorry for myself, because of all the good things I want to happen to me!!! I have been spending most of my free time, focusing on all the things I want to happen in my life, when really I should be using my time TOTALLY for Christ!....So last night was Bible study night, and I finally told all the guys that I needed prayer to get my heart and eyes TOTALLY back on God! Some of them prayed for me! Then as we were singing to the Lord, I used the worship time to pray, and tell God I want to stop being selfish and do what he wants! So I told him I would do anything for him!...So on my way home I was driving and praying, and I wanted to get home to bed (cuz I had to get up this morning kind of early)...but God had other plans lol...I felt the Lord tell me that If I really was wanting to do things totally for him, that I needed to share Christ with somebody that night...he placed on my heart, that I should go to Buttermilk park and just pray...I saw 6 guys my age under age drinking in the park (it was like 11 at night), so I prayed for them...and I felt led to go out there and share Jesus with them...unfortunately, fear got in the way...so I sat in the car and prayed some more...about 20 minutes later this one man walked by, and he looked pretty scary...I felt the Lord tell me "Charley this is the man I want you to talk to", I was like "Please no, he looks dangerous"...so I again stayed in the car and watched him walk away...about 5 minutes later I finally got out of the car, and I told God "God if you want me to share you with anybody, you are gonna have to have the person come up to me, then I will share you with them"...Ha ha God has a sense of humor, the man I told God I didn't want to share Christ with, was walking towards me...he asked me if I had a cigarette on me. I told him I did not, and then I asked him if he ever felt lonely inside, or like life has no purpose, he responded by saying "yes, actually I do, that is the reason I drink so much, I to try to fill that void, but it doesn't work", I was amazed at his honest answer...so I was able to share Christ with him and tell him that he does have a purpose in life, and that he doesn't have to feel empty, and that he has a maker who loves him...Afterward, I wanted to know what he thought of what I had to say, so I said "Sorry I didn't have a cigarette to give you, but I am so happy I could share Jesus with you", He responded by saying "ah, that is okay, what you had to say is probably way more what I needed, man"...I was aw stuck at his openness to Christ! Oh, how I have been such a bad Christian, by not sharing Jesus just because I am scared of getting beat up, or swore at! I pray I can continue to focus totally on serving the Lord, and let the Lord worry about all the other things I want to happen in my life!...I guess what I have learned this week, is that no matter how inadequate we feel to serve the Lord, the Lord can and WILL use us! AMEN